my sex appeal is your ideal.

keep forgeting to forget about you

2010-08-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:10pm

hey..you're from ite clementi right?

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:14pm

yeah

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:14pm

you are also right?

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:15pm

yeah..you seen me before ah?hahaha..

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:16pm

i think so yeah .. if i didnt get the wrong person then it should be right hahah

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:18pm

hahaha..so what course are you in?i cant remember..banking or hospitality..if i'm not wrong you're banking..

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:21pm

wah so clever??hahah

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:22pm

hahaha..i'm very observant..;)

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:22pm

i see .. ok ok so what course are you in?

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:23pm

business information-technology..

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:25pm

ouh never heard of it .. got such course? 1st 2nd year?

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:28pm

yes..my batch was the last..2nd year..service management took over business it..

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:30pm

eh .. ouh .. haha so complicated .. no attachment?

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:32pm

hahaha..that's why..nope..my course dont have a compulsory attchment..our attachment is like during the holidays..attached to some taxi company and picke up calls..it's not compulsory..

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:34pm

easy thing .. okok .. so about to leave the school uh .. huh .. cant wait for my turn .. to get out of the school ..

Sergio Fahmi October 17, 2009 at 8:36pm

hahaha..for it's easy leaving sch..coz you'll probably be working or poly..for me and any other guys..national service here we come..haha!!

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:41pm

hey but it isnt that bad .. it looks fun to me .. watching guys becoming a man .. it helps guys become tougher .. am i right? but somehow my brother doesnt like it because to him there's no freedom .. haha

Chloe Lee October 17, 2009 at 8:41pm

but hey going to poly isnt that easy!

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 12:46pm

haha...yeah..true..at least you save up 2 years of your life..

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 12:46pm

anyway..aqira ariqa aeriqa is your name?

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:12pm

hahah you believe .. nah aqira is but the rest i wish i have ")

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:16pm

haha..cool cool..aqira sound japanese..

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:18pm

it was indeed .. it was from my mum's ex which was a japanese guy .. hahah

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:18pm

whoo..cool..:Dso what are you doing at home?not going out?

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:21pm

i wish i could but with loads of assignments how to leave house .. with my previous gpa .. nah im not satisfied .. talking about me what about you?

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:22pm

i see i see..1st year is very tiring..the timetable is a killer..but 2nd year relax alr..haha..yeap..going out to apply for job later..

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:25pm

really?i doubt that haha especially when i get to know im going to be shifted to bishan damn! *heartache* but right now the timetable is indeed a killer hahah! job?ouh what job?

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:28pm

bishan???why??ermm..bartending..

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:31pm

all banking students are shifted there next year instead of cck .. *another heartache* ouh i see .. a friend recommend or what??

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:35pm

serious??why eh?that's bad..anyway,where do you stay?

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:37pm

exactly its bad .. damn bad .. im staying in the west side .. which is bb so from bb to bishan gosh .. its so far ..

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:41pm

haha..yeah..from my house also consider very far to sch..anyway..any idea how we can keep in contact when we dont meet online?:P

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:42pm

where do you stay?

right .. here you go ..

999

hhahaha

82770890

Sergio Fahmi October 18, 2009 at 2:48pm

bedok..haha..999 eh?thanks..:)i'll text you my no.

Chloe Lee October 18, 2009 at 2:48pm

welcome ") hahah alright sure thing ")

i miss you.

why are you like this now?

2010-07-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

all of us are broken. :'(

let the pictures update you all about me

2010-07-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

i wasnt sure if im the right one for him;

but i dont have the right to say these kind of things cause he's the one with me so let he decide whats best for him, me, well us then.

things were never better when im with him.

though i ~~hate~~ him sometimes, well for no ~~reasonable reason~~, but for that reason, i actually love him.

the-me-right-now

2010-05-04T09:20:00.000+08:00

better little bit

2010-05-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

well.
like finally.
there's someone who wants to listen everything.
every single detail i need to spill.

for once i can say anything without anyone's point of view which are not required.
i can say anything without any interruptions.
i can say anything without disencouragement.

i can cry my heart out.
in fact, i cried all out.

it felt better, a little bit.

but
wait..

yes
wait..

the fucking damn thing is still here.
yes still here.
its not a dream.
no its not.
so thanks.

cause i know
its not over.

true true.

longgg storyyy

2010-05-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

i wonder where to start?

its been real longgg.

manyyy things i've went through while i was away here.
but no, i did not forget you.
cause before i had anyone to talk to, you were the one i type to.

the last post i update was november last year.
i had a boyfriend.
and i still have.
thanks to my boyfriend, i had a friend.
and my friend was the one who accompany me while i was away here.
she thought me how to stand strong.
every word from her always kept me going.
not that every word from my boyfriend didnt kept me going, its just that..
well its complicated but i know he understand what i mean.
she became my pillar.

normally in a story, when someone say something like this, their pain and nightmare is over.
but not mine.
im still going through it and still have a long way to go.

im not strong.
i swear im not.
but i wonder why im still here.
the feeling is close to dying.
i swear its very very close.
but im still standing.
though i cant take it.

now i feel like crying.

but i cant.

i need to be strong.

i need to show her im strong.

cause she depend on me.

so much on me.

she cant see me cry.

if she did she'll lose hope.

mama.

papa was the reason.

it all started because of him.

i hate him.

sorry i cant continue..
be back soon.

what about me

2009-11-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

if its me
then it was me
but if it was you
i dont know what to do.

there's these things

2009-11-07T01:34:00.000+08:00

if its something i thought it is

then leave it aside

if its something worth to me

i’ll stood up and fight

for everything

wasnt there

for nothing

for everything

was there

for something

promise i wont

hurt you or anything

promise i will

never leave you empty.

things change

2009-11-07T01:32:00.003+08:00

you keep wanting me

like how i needed you

i can hardly believe it

but where is this taking us to?

what seen today

definitely isnt tomorrow

a plan ahead

doesnt mean it follow

however,

choices is many

decision is mine to get it

you make me feel right

you make me feel wrong

but the main thing

it goes on and on

and thats something

like thats the thing i have been searching for long.

depended on you

2009-11-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

im not telling if youre not asking

im not listening if youre not speaking

im not sure if youre sure

im not convince if youre not convincing

im not selling if youre not buying

im not giving if youre not taking.

sense me honey

2009-11-07T01:31:00.002+08:00

you see

you read

you hear

you listen

you tell

you say

when i look

you came to see

when i read

you came to understand

when i listen

you came near to hear

when i tell

you answer me all your say.

video calling

2009-11-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

i like this

2009-10-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3xh6_jhlnU&feature=player_embedded

IF

2009-10-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

“if im with you now

would you be ready to take me in?

in your heart would it be me you pin?

if i see you now

would you smile at me?

cause it makes me fall down deep.

if i tell you now

would you want to listen to every words i say?

instead of listening it away.

if im listening to you now

would you say something i would like to hear?

whisper those sweet things in my ear.

if im lost now

would you try to find me and then take me home?

not leaving me all alone.

if im crying now

would you appear to kill my pain away?

so that all my effort reaching out for you will be paid.”

a WANT and a NEED

2009-10-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

“a boyfriend is a want

a husband is a need”

when it was RED and BLUE

2009-10-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

once you get a kiss believe me you might get all of me.

set me FREE

2009-10-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

this was like an after.

tears had i let go before.

but this after aint going to last any longer.

showing isnt what i desire.

hiding it in making me perspire.

many things in life have been ambushing me.be it family, friends, work or even something personal.never have i faced such a difficult times like this, like 2009.it was a greatful learning of pains, suffering and enduring.i was weak when facing it but those weakness made me strong.to look back to where i brought myself now to.however, it hasnt yet end.cause its still here.

papa .. mama .. please .. im not that strong .. please im begging .. dont destroy what we have .. we dont used to be this way .. we were such a strong build family .. remember .. those difficult times we faced together .. please ..

love is something i have yet to discover.

friends, you are all i need now.

its not you

2009-10-20T01:41:00.003+08:00

“dont speak love to me, its meaningless as it seem, dont snatch my heart and me, im not willing to let it be, the other darkness have melted me, its no you its hard to believe.”

pointing out NOW my wrong

2009-10-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

i sat down yesterday

thinking of what i had done

writing down their names

to my surprise there were about 26 of them

i felt guilty

some, yes i have to admit

it was my mistake

but a few

i wanted it

but they left me instead

so which is which

was it me or them

“truth is indeed that ugly”

but like what she had said yesterday

the past made me learn and it make who i am right now

but still, im still in the same situation

right now.

something on the MIND

2009-10-17T17:42:00.002+08:00

the FATAL THREAD of life

thanks darlings for all the GIFTS

2009-10-09T16:59:00.001+08:00

from my dear BB

this is full of birthday cards:)

from ruzailyn

from my dear cbtl

love the blue roses.

thanks darlings:)

the proposal made me THINK

2009-10-05T03:13:00.001+08:00

its been quite awhile i love
its been quite awhile i held a hand
its been quite awhile i hug
its been quite awhile i kiss
its been quite awhile i feel

feel that someone is there thinking of me .. only
feel that someone care so much about me .. only
feel that someone miss me that badly
feel LOVE

oh god knows how much i miss those things

to LOVE and be LOVED

but you .. you destroy thoughts of a guy

a dream guy of mine

the hardness you put on me

those hits pain on me

when i fell in for love again

remembering past of you done to me

hatred suddenly came out of it

and i avoid this thing called "guy"

and lonely was i back again

tell me how to forgive you

because of your done-ness drove me insane

wanted but afraid

take in then throw out

let them boys be victimised

purpose no it wasnt

feelings uncontrollable

words my own i created

however its all fated.

pyscho

2009-10-04T03:31:00.004+08:00

this fucking fucker will never stop lying
well at least he admit that he did make up stories about me to shifah
so listen up
im fucking virgin asshole
we had never ~~played~~ before
so stop the nonsense

as an evident
this is the conversation we had
see how hypocrite he is
actually there's more
but i didnt get to save the first few
only the last few
still its something

1:59am Khai :

i wont

you really want me to admit?

wait k

i admit i told shifa about you all, other than her, i swear

no one else know

then got that one day i bumb into helmi and mun they saw you with

a guy ridding bike

i never notice

i also dont know it was you

then we lepak, then they saw you guys walking and helmi kacau

then helmi started asking question what i do with you all

i just shake my head saying no

then he told me you tell him

then i was shocked kejap uh

but buat bodoh

then i salam them and pick my brother

after all that, no stories i made about you

good stories i told my friends about you

that during i with you, i hurt you

you are ta girl that sabar

nothing bad about you i said to them

i admit during start school i say you like sial all

but weeks months past

i said to them i was mostly at fault

what else you need to know?

i really want uyour forgivness, cause bile i got a new girl, lots of

flashback happen, now i give my girl all her freedom, i dont care

with who she go out with

i became kaku in bgr

i want us to be friends, sebab mcm weird i dont know how to explain

if not i understand, i just want you to know how much i regret

and so sorry

2:14am Aqira :

keep your words

you're just wasting it

people like you never change

its not like i've known you yesterday

2:15am Khai :

i really do change, maybe not when i with you, but losing you that

moment make me change alot

2:17am Aqira :

hello

i known you for so long

you havent change a single bit

im not dumb

2:17am Khai :

i know

i never say you are

i change

2:19am Aqira :

dont try to twist the stories with me

im not stupid to believe your stupid make up story

2:19am Khai :

im not twisting any of it

2:19am Aqira :

see what i mean

hypocrite

2:20am Khai :

what i just im not twisting it

i did my best, to change and say the truth

2:22am Aqira :

till you say the damn bloody truth i might consider forgiving you

but as for as it is

you can just forget about it

2:23am Khai :

hey i admit the truth, what can i do to prove to you that im telling

the truth

2:24am Aqira :

i know where the truths is

so dont try me

2:24am Khai :

im not why would i, i dont even dare

2:25am Aqira :

bullshits

2:25am Khai :

swear okay

im not that type anymore

2:25am Aqira :

you've been swearing all your life even the lies

shut the crap

2:26am Khai :

i aint gonna lie no more

cause you and me are not together

im nt afraid to tell the truth

2:28am Aqira :

coward ass

2:28am Khai :

im not okay

2:29am Aqira :

go away

2:29am Khai :

for now i let believe in who you believe, i really hope that one day

will come when you will know im telling the truth

and i really wish to hear from you soon

2:30am Aqira :

that will be the last thing on earth

2:31am Khai :

haizzzz

i leave you now

a day out

2009-10-04T02:50:00.001+08:00

been so long i've been to SENTOSA

so was bored one day

so ask mama if she wants to SENTOSA

to just chill and relax

and yes so we went ..

for the first time no ~~make up~~ was on

level 1 ..

level 2 ..

level 3.

taking a break and feeling the cooling breeze.

oh my ~~fats~~~

thanks to rahman we got the entry to merlion for FREE!!!

play a little bit of water again

and time to head home.

my BIRTHDAY

2009-09-30T02:11:00.002+08:00

*muacks*

*loved*

had my day @ cineleisure cathay to catch a movie

want my day to be a laughing day so i pick this one

and damn it was damn good

had a good laugh

thanks Z for everyhing

i just got home

late huh??

well its my birthday

wait till next year!!

it'll be late-er

*giggling*

learning to love CATS again

2009-09-27T15:46:00.001+08:00

i was afraid of ~~cats~~ actually

this is due to the scratch from a cat i get

from then onwards im afraid of ~~cats~~

not ~~kitty cats~~

then yesterday raya-ing at malaysia's houses

one of the house have this cutey cat named fluffy

oh she was damn fluffy

very fluffy indeed

she very proud and bold

very fluffy and fat

very lazy indeed

very very lazy

but love playing hide and seek

found it hahah

trying to learn how to carry it

and it gave me a catfight

my mission was accomplished!

*footy print*

then off we go to another house

though i ~~hate kids~~ but this one amazed me

he is so cute

heheh

sending brother AQI to CHANGI AIRPORT

2009-09-27T00:11:00.001+08:00

watch this ~~BOY~~ turn to MEN

papa want him to be independant like how he used to be

mama find it hard to let him go

she loves him that much

well mummy's boy

tasha will definitely miss her brother

no more 'manje-manje'

and me?

well i pretty much dont care

haha

except for the fact that no one is going to be there to send me to school of fetch me with a bike

bye bye brother

will try hard to ~~miss you~~

*giggling*

2nd Day Raya (BLUE)

2009-09-26T23:57:00.001+08:00

BLUE'09

sayang papaku

haha kakak trying to bully her adik

*evil smile*

1st Day Raya (RED)

2009-09-26T23:49:00.001+08:00

RED'09

the sexy and the hottie

both my men

sweet couple

all time ~~daddy's girl~~

our last day puase buke-ing @ KFC @ ANCHOR POINT

2009-09-26T23:37:00.001+08:00

*loved*

back from CHANGI AIRPORT

2009-09-26T01:14:00.001+08:00

send brother already
fuhh so many army boys
*giggling*
their hair super funny lei
cant stop laughing
*ooopsssi*
ok luh need to hibernate now ..

say BYE-BYE

2009-09-25T22:27:00.001+08:00

aww!

~~sweet~~ brother is leaving already

yeay!

*laughing*

where to --> brunei (cant it be further?)

how long --> 3 weeks (cant it be longer?)

for what --> ns (hahah!)

papa is returning back to jakarta

so back to the boring ~~sweet~~ tasha and mama

urgh!

ALERT!

this is serious :(

its going to be my birthday and everyone is leaving?

even nadia alimah and janna is going for a camp!

~~no one~~ is celebrating my day?

im turning 17!

this is serious :'(

my RANDOMness

2009-09-25T14:18:00.001+08:00

i have ~~wild imagination~~ ..
really ..

if one day i come up to you
and kiss you right on your lips
tell me
what will you do??

AIDILFITRI '09

2009-09-23T17:34:00.001+08:00

HARI RAYA @ MALAYSIA (KAMPONG!) '09

sweet family

you think?

this is how the word fun was form.

and this is how the word crazy was form.

the ladies in town.

fun and crazy is done done lets head home.

one last one before we leave.

this is definitely the last one and thats how we end it.

everSINCE

2009-09-23T16:52:00.001+08:00

been busy with no mood.

reasons im ~~not updating~~.

had pretty rough time in awhile.

kinda'

sort of.

things got messed up and complications happened.

its scary but sooner or later it happen again.

and i just did let it happen.

again and again and again.

almost ready

2009-09-11T03:46:00.001+08:00

mama was so noisy today because i woke up @ 3pm.
but thought its going to be a ~~lazy day~~ but turns out the opposite!
clean totally clean my room .. BLUE .. BLUE .. more BLUE!
help out with ~~brother's room~~ too.
plus the ~~living room~~.
was tired, very tired, but satisfying.
so ready for hari raya.

*jump for joy*

miss papa so much actually.
miss brother too.
such a weird way to celebrate hari raya this year.
things are different now.

*haix*

nevermind .. .. ~~appreciate~~ what i have now.
better than ~~nothing~~.

yeah .. this year is different ..
not like last year raya ..
everythings' different ..

thought of a thought

once and for all

remember those fought

look at you, standing tall

glad for you

wish you dont wish you

who you are

are the ones i turn you to

that was used to

what you are now

are what i made you

inside out

appreciate it not

matter does not

jealousy no no no

i had you once

i know you well in all

they get the best afterall

lucky easy them

need not run the race at all

like how i did

still i had nowhere to be fit

no im not going round searching

cause i know

how true my heart is

it will come find me.

'110909

"a relationship works when the other a partner careless about it"

a LONG time NO this FEELING

2009-09-10T02:01:00.001+08:00

its weird.

its akward.

.. .. and its been quite a long time.
.. .. i mean honestly i dont even recongnised the word ~~"LOVED"~~ anymore.
.. .. the previous met with those humans called "GUYS" was a ~~no feeling~~ at all.

whats love anyway??
INFATUATION??
seriously i have ~~no idea.~~
im trying hard to ~~feel~~ it again.
but i just cant.

but yes i do want to settle down.
but cant lie about the fact that i ~~cant feel~~ anything.
i dont ~~fall in love~~ easily.
yes people do see im with this guy and that guy.
but hey if i dont get to know how am i going to fall in love??
common sense right??

ok lets put all these aside now.

its so pressurising.
is there such word?

so today was a dull day.
not until .. .. NETBALL!!
tiring but its always satisfying.
kinda' long time no play so starting was very blur.
but after that i got the hang of it.
and of course it was a blast!!

then get home and took my long shower.
and i think im ~~catching a cold plus a fever~~.

then got so bored and i webcam myself on my lappy.

thats all lor.

*oh yeah!

psst!

on the way home there's this common people!

and i hate them!

stop looking at my ass idiatos.

done and OVER with

2009-09-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

GOODBYE~
~~communicating for business,~~
~~business for environment,~~
~~principles of accounting,~~
~~office application.~~

*jump for joy*

HELLO to the word FUN!!!
let's wake up late .. sleep all day .. stay up all night.
now mama won't ~~yell~~ for chatting on phone till late night.
no more of mama ~~shouting~~,
~~"AQIRA!! GO SLEEP!! TOMORROW SCHOOL!! DON'T BE LATE!!"~~

exam's season

2009-09-07T16:16:00.001+08:00

Date/Day : 070909/Monday
Time check : 04:17pm
Location : Jurong Library

hello library!!!

hello ~~books, papers~~ and blah blah blah...

i just want to get done and over with ~~all these exams.~~

~~office application~~ is done done.

so is ~~business environment.~~

now left with principles of account.

like those days in ~~secondary schools~~.

panic at the disco!!!

haha panicky now.

okay better get back to my ~~revision.~~

re-FRESH

2009-09-06T22:14:00.001+08:00

start blog-ing again now.

as though its a ~~new thing~~.

the last time i blog was like sec 3.

so old school.

well used it again now cause i feel that i need the space to say ~~sometimes~~.

is it a ~~wrong thing~~ to get back to square one?